I’m astounded, grateful and deeply saddened but motivated...
ASTOUNDED: My symptoms are already on the mend. My operation ended up being at 7:00PM. I wasn’t in a lot of pain coming out of the surgery and the nurses at my plastic surgeons took such great care of me. I woke up the next morning and I could notice the difference already! The colour of my skin seemed to be back. There wasn’t this grey overtone. My eyes opened wider and I didn’t feel like they were heavy. My neck and back didn’t hurt anymore.
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| No makeup (except mascara) and taken at same time of day with same lighting/position |
By the end of the week the inflammation in my face and neck went down immensely and I could think so much clearer. It was weird, I naturally had pain from the operation but it was nothing compared to all the other symptoms that seemed to be slipping away. So I was left feeling chipper and happy to be alive. I was sitting on the ground with my little boy the next night, reading a book and in no pain. I’ve never experienced being pain-free when I’m on the ground with him… I left his room in total disbelief.
I returned to work after one week off and that is when I really noticed the difference in my energy and my brain. Before I would last till about 10am and then would literally be leaning on my desk trying to keep my body upwards. After the operation, I have so much energy and am completely awake until the moment I go to bed. This blows my mind! I have been living with no energy for so many years.
I am able to think again. I am able to have a fluid conversation with people without trying to grasp for words or ideas. I feel so much more confident when I speak. I could honestly cry, this has changed my life. I was starting to isolate myself and not talk to people or share with others because I couldn’t carry a conversation. This didn’t only affect my personal life but also my work life. I stopped being able to make to-do lists. I couldn’t comprehend them, I couldn’t think of what I had to do so I just avoided them. I could only think about the present moment and two days out. This is all gone!! I’m planning again and working super efficiently.
The week before I went for my explant, I could not fathom walking more than two blocks. It just seemed like such a task to take on. Now, I don’t even bat an eye if I have to go walk to get something. I got this! Exercise is still on the sidelines and will be a bit till I’m allowed but I’m genuinely giddy excited to get back at it. I can’t wait to do yoga, hit the gym, hike and play sports again.
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| One week out from Explant Surgery |
GRATEFUL: I’m living life again! And appreciate being able to connect with my little boy, my husband, family and friends. I started 2018 knowing there was something wrong but couldn’t put my finger on it. I thought this was it - this was how I was going to feel for the rest of my life. To be given the opportunity to make this change and have my life back - it’s incredible and I will always be grateful for the universe leading me to this. I will not take my health for granted.
I’m grateful for my amazing family who did not blink an eye when I told them this was my plan. Who fully supported me and never left my side. I’m grateful to all the people who didn’t abandon me during the very hard times in the past few years. The specialists, chiropractors, massage therapists, acupuncturist/Chinese medicine, and therapists who crutched me to the finish line. So grateful to be alive!
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| Months Leading Up to Surgery (w/makeup) |
SADDENED but MOTIVATED: I’m sad this is happening to so many women. It’s become just a common practice for women to get breast implants. I understand this was my choice back in the day but we weren’t given all the information. We put our trust in that the doctors have our best interest in mind. And they most likely do but it’s the companies that sell these devices that continue to push them into the hands of these doctors. It feels like it’s money over safety and well being and that’s a very sad statement.
I’m motivated to help spread the word about ‘Breast Implant Illness’. I understand this may not happen to every woman because people’s bodies react differently. For all those women who feel alone and lost because their bodies are failing and their spirits are broken, lets spread the word for them. I want to let them know they are not alone and start looking into Breast Implant Illness for themselves.
Thank you to everyone who has reached out!
Lots of Love
-Michelle K.
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